Christmas and such

I found myself being angry that some blogs I follow have not posted in a while.
Then I realized how hypocritical that is.

Sometimes I don't think that I have anything to write about. And sometimes I actually don't. But other times, I just have to be quiet for a second, and think about what has happened over the last few weeks.

I had to look to see if I had posted anything since Christmas.
Nope, I didn't.

Christmas is great and wonderful and CAN be magical.....but seriously, lets face it.......Christmas is a commercialized pain in the ass. And I buy into it every year.
This year was the worst. Not necessarily buying into the whole commercialized BS part.....but rather procrastinating and such, therefore not really getting into the true meaning, or the magic of it.

Everyone has there own "True Meaning" of Christmas.
For me, my "True Meaning" of Christmas is quality time spent with loved ones. Reconnecting with the real relationship you have with those close to you. Service. Totally about service.
Ugh! I am so mad at myself that I let those things slip.
I was so caught up in other things, that I allowed myself to get stressed out about what I thought others expectations of me were (not cuz they told me....they don't know. I know your expectations of me and your judgments better than you ever could....right?)

Last year I approached my family with the idea of serving a family for Christmas.
Everyone of us have what we need, and pretty much what we want.
The last thing I wanted from anyone was some clearance gadget from Bed Bath and Beyond.
And I sure as hell wasn't interested in purchasing same said gadget for anyone else.
So, instead of any of us buying anything for each other, we would put that money towards a family.
It was a great experience.

So, I wanted to do the same thing year.
In fact I wanted to do multiple families.
One that the Schmidt Family could serve. One that the Boulter/McDonald Family could serve. And one that we could serve with our friends. (Cuz here is the truth...we have kick ass friends)
Ask me if ANY of them happened.

Wait...don't.

It will make me feel bad about it all over again.
What did I do instead?

Did I get my shopping done early? Nope.
Done by Dec 1st? Nope
Done by mid Dec? Nope
Actually, DONE would imply that at one point I even started. So lets start over.
Start my shopping early? NOPE
Start my shopping by December 1st? NOPE
START my shopping by MID DECEMBER??? NOPE!!!

I started my shopping December 21st.
And I hated every moment of it.
And all I had to really shop for was Tye and Grace.
Tye is a "what do I buy Tye" disaster from hell anyway. Really. I get it that I may exaggerate at times.....but this is not one of the times. The fact that I have to call his friends to get ideas about what to get him, lets you know how bad of a wife I really am. I made him agree that this year he will not buy anything for himself after September 1st.
Seriously, throw us a bone here.

I had the entire week of Christmas off, and it was not relaxing. Not at all. It was hectic and fast and stressful.
It is no one elses fault but my own.

I will do better this year.

This year, we will serve a family. (Maybe more)
This year, we will spend quality time with those that we love.
This year, it will feel magical and yummy.
This year, my house will smell like pine trees and gingerbread cookies.
This year, my house will be decorated with cute little holiday crafts that Grace and I do.
This year, there will be no tension, no stress about what to get someone. Because there will only be 2 people that I buy for.
I am going to be straight up honest. Other than Tye and Grace, there was only ONE person of all the others I purchased gifts for, that I was excited about. Truly....ONE!
That's CRAP!

So then Christmas was over.
Whew!

Next, New Years.

Here is the short version:

Rather than focusing on New Years, we had a "Brian Is Gooder Than Hell" party for our friend (and one of my favoritest people) Brian.

It was fun.
It was crazy.
At times dramatic.
But we were super glad to celebrate his birthday at our house.

However, it took us about 4 days to clean the house.

I am glad the chance of that happening again is a year away. :D

And lastly.....
3 days after I got my Jeep. Tye totaled his truck.
But, it was totaled.
So we will see what they will pay us for it, and Tye will get a new truck .
I think he was just jealous of my Jeep.
Truly.
I am not kidding.


And, I am sorry if you get to be one of the recipients of Graces message......
If you are, it will sound like this.....


"Hey there Sonny- Names Everett. These two soggy sonsabitches are Pete and Delmar." Followed by her famous Bart Simpson laugh.
Who am I kidding, I am not sorry if you get that message. Consider yourself lucky if you do.
Its funnier than hell!
So far there has only been two people that she has left that message for.
I wouldn't let her call Gma and Gpa.....so sorry.

Go ahead. Judge Me.


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