So since i told HCG to to go and eff itself, this blog can no longer be dedicated to my HCG journey.

Unless I lose weight.
Then I will tell you.

However, it will be dedicated to whatever else I want to talk about.

Like this:
Yesterday we had a family get together for my sister Erin and Brother Erik birthdays.
We had a fiesta.
There were Margaritas.

Anna and I were in the kitchen. (she is a GREAT hostess)
We were talking about how much fun we have with our family and how much we love each other.
The whole day I was thinking....
"K, this is cool....cuz its a family get together with everyone that is already part of the family...and everyone that will be part of the family as well"
It was a sneak peek.
A glimpse of what it will be.
How it should be.

I get it.
I may be jumping the gun here.
But then Anna said it first.

yeah, we're talking about Brian and Jason.
The new additions.
Jason belongs to Kristin and Brian belongs to Anna.
Remember me talking about Tyes friend Brian that I love so much?
Well, thats him.

Now, dont think that I set Anna and Brian up.
I surely did not.
In fact, I worked against it.....kinda. Only cuz Anna told me that is what she wanted.
Then she came to her senses.
She is glad she did.
I am glad she did.
I know both Brians are glad that she did too.

Now Kristin and Jason.
Well. Let me tell you what he has done to her.
She is soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo happy.
She smiles A LOT!
She is soft, open, and vulnerable.
Not the norm for the not so flattering nick named "ice-princess".
(no lie....but dont worry, she knows this.....im not tellin any secrets)

Both my sisters are being taken care of.
In the ways the everyone wants and deserves.
Kristin....for the first time.
And Anna...in a way she thought she may have lost...forever. But she hasnt.

Some may say that it isnt common to find such love.
But I disagree.
I dont think this kind of love is a miracle.
I think we all have it to give.
We all want to receive as well.
Its just a matter of being open to it.
Or you can choose not to be.

I want to share a video with you.
Most, if not all, of you have seen it.
I posted it on my Facebook.

This is footage that Annas husband Brian Cardall took of them when they were in Peru on there honeymoon.
Brians amazing brother Paul put it to his music.
It is to his song Sweet Escape.
It is such a touching tribute.

After the first 20 times I watched it, I thought "Man, I hope one day I can watch this with out being an emotional mess."
But the truth is....no I dont.
The emotional mess that I am when I watch it is proof to me of my love for Brian and for Anna.
The emotion is sadness, but also joy.
You have to be a robot not to feel the love they have for each other. Not to feel the genuine love that Brian has for people. Not to feel the pure truth in the goodness that he is.
I dont want to be a robot.

***Ok, so since this post, the author of this song and video removed it from You Tube....WTH? Im gonna have to have some words with that man.... :) So sorry. Not here now. But as soon as it is available again, I will post it.****

Test yourself and see......

Sweet Escape


Please....tell me what you think....


in the word of Gracie to her dad over text..... "I Hart you so much!"

Alisa

bad words with drops

by noon yesterday (first day on drops from my scheduled interuption) I told hcg to screw itself.

More drops.....

Back to where I ended.
NICE!

I was going to start my drops again today, but I think that I will start them tomorrow.
Just for 10 more days.
I can do that.
Easy Breezy
'Sept this time, I will continue to take my vitamins.

I need to get prepared tonight.
Get some chicken, asparagus, tomatoes, cabbage and other stuff.....I gotta think of what. Oh yeah, cucumbers.
I really dont want to do it again, but I want to maybe lose 10 lbs more.


So, I have not posted a funny Grace story for a while.

She LOVES to use my phone to text people.
Actually, she has only text 2 people.
Friend Brian is the one that she loves to text the most.
He responds to her and will have a text conversation with her.

ANYWAY.....
Last week she asked me if she could text Brian again.
I told her no. He was at a meeting with Tye.
Then she asked me if she could text my sister Anna.

I told her no.
She asked why.
I told her "Because, Anna is in Arizona."

pause..............................................................

Graces response:

"What...there's no texting in Arizona...........?"

Um....yeah...I guess there is.
Here is my phone.

Lesson: If you are going to say no and have a reason why, that reason needs to be a better one than why the answer should be yes.
Thanks for the lesson oh wise 7 year old.

Love, Love...weight gain....

So, this last weekend, we staffed The Couples Training at The Great Life Foundation.
What an awesome thing.
Really.
I am so grateful that I get to really show my husband how much I love him.
And he gets to show me as well. So vulnerable, so honest.
All of the outside, daily noise is put to rest for 3 days, and it is just US.
Gracious.
I love him so much and I am so grateful that he chooses me. Every day.

However, I was not as Nazi as I could have/maybe should have been with my eating.
I was sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo afraid to get on the scale this morning.
Tye weighed himself last night.

There was NO WAY I was going to torture myself by weighing myself at night.


So, we went to the gym last night.
Walking, Biking and running.
Worked my abs, legs and my back muscles. (Seriously have NO idea what the muscles are called)

The scale this morning said I gained 1.4 lbs from Thursday.
I am okay with that.
Since I was pretty sure it would say 10 lbs.

Drops tomorrow for 10 days.

Then, continue at the gym.
Got some biking to do.

Steak Day, Schmeak Day

Not even a pound down.

Ugh!


I figure I will just continue to get me calories in with good, clean foods.
And healthy fats.
Then, continue with the gym.

That can only lead to good things....right?

On the positive side....I ordered some pants from Old Navy.
I ordered a smaller size cuz I thought that at least I will be able to fit into them soon enough.
Well....they are too big.

WOOT WOOT!!


Ah-lee

Here's the truth....

My sister made me very aware of how often I say that.
Here's the Truth...I am already aware of how often I say that. :)

Wanna know why I say that?
Well, cuz I prefer to only speak the truth.

Its my way of keeping me in check.
Making sure that I am, indeed, giving the truth.

So, along the lines of truth...I have decided that I am going to dedicate this blog to my quest to be skinnier, healthier, and HAWTER!

So, I will post my losses, my gains, my struggles, my conquers, my goals and my achievements. (Is that a word?.....it is now)

So.
As of this morning.
Since October 9th 2009
I have lost 57 lbs.
I feel great.
Some of you may not know how though.

I jumped on the HCG wagon.
My sisters and my dad had done it.
Monika lost 70 lbs.
One day Kristin just asked me if I wanted to do it.
See...I had been resistant before.
I had my ideas that supported my resistance.
But it truly changed in a matter of .8 seconds.

Question posed: "Hey, you wanna do this with us this round?"
Question answered: "Sure"

Now, as you read the two sentences, do you see the space between them?
Ya know, between the top one and the bottom one?
Not much room huh?
Well, in this itsy bitsy space lies miles and miles and miles of thought.
All that was processed in the amount of time that the little space represents. (Like I said .8 seconds)

So the question, thought and answer really looked like this:
Question Posed: "Hey you wanna do this with us this round?"

-What will happen if I am hungry?

-Just my luck, I will be the only person on the earth that this will not work for.

-Not only not work for, but have reverse affects. I will gain weight at an amazing speed.

-What if it does work.

-What if I can be skinnier

-What if I can do things that I cant do now

-What if I am happier

-What if my husband is more attracted to me.

-What if OTHER people think I am attractive

-What if Grace follows in my foot steps and is overweight and unhappy

-What if she doesn't.

-Can I do this?

-YES! I can do ANYTHING!

-You are so gonna do this.

-HELL YEAH I AM! And I am going to ROCK IT!!
Question Answered: "Sure"

Let me tell you.
Not easy.
And....not the hardest thing that I have done. Nor will I ever do.

I learned that I am very powerful. I learned that I am the one that is in control...if I choose to be.
I learned that being in control comes with big responsibility. And choosing not to be in control means choosing to let go of responsiblity.

Seriously, I can do anything for 30 days....right?
I can choose to make it the best it can be, or I can choose to rely on my ole trusty excuses, and let things remain as they are.

Well, I chose not to let things remain the same.

So, I look different.
It is obvious.
Some people comment.
Some people dont.
Some people lift me up and let me know how great my progress is.
And some people choose to point out how far I have left to go.
But, whatever.
I am aware that I do this for no one else other than myself.

So I will let this post be the first of the recording the daily (or sumphin like that) trek for me.
Right now I am doing no sugar no starches.
I need to eat at least 1500 calories a day.
I am having a hard time getting that in.

Yesterday, I think I ate 900 calories, and burned 400 at the gym. (BTW...first day at the gym)

Mathematically, it may seem great. But my body freaked out and I had a 3 lb weight gain this morning. So I then freaked out.

On this part of the diet, if you gain more than 2 lbs in the morning, that DAY you have to do what is called a "Steak Day".

What you do on a "Steak Day" is this.

You eat nothing...all day long.

Only drink water.

Then for dinner you have the fattiest 16 oz Ribeye you can find and one whole tomato, raw.

Then magically the weight comes off.

I have yet to find someone that says it doesnt work.

I will let you know in the morning.

aLiSa

Nope, not weird at all.

I have always been of the belief, or thought, that if something doesn't feel weird, awkward, or unfamiliar, then it must be right. That's not to say that weird, awkward or unfamiliar is WRONG.
I'm just saying that if it feels familiar...it must be right....at least for the moment.

That's how this feels.
Its always felt this way.
Even before it was something that actually WAS.

This is not even about me. But the way that I love it, you would think that it was about me.

Its "her"
Its "that guy"

I am the happiest girl alive.

BTW.
I only extended this private invitation to view my blog to 12 people.
One of which, you are.
I'm just tellin ya, so that when you see the hawt (not inappropriate) pics that I will be posting, you might get an idea about how special you are.......
Just sayin'.